I'm hiding here in my room, listening to an ex-neighbor singing the praises of her daughter and son at university.
And my parents wowing and awwing at it all.

The minute she'll go away and we'll start dinner I'll have to listen to the usual crap of 'Look how smart A is. Look how good B is! Why can't you be like that?'.

If it came from people who actually had a clue what they were talking about I might take it better.
But my parents didn't go to university, so they drink up every crap people tell them, except mine. Cause I obviously exaggerate or make it up. Logical, no?

So a guy that's doing good in a degree that's basically on the same level as everybody's high-school?
Ah, he's a GENIUS. GENIUS, I tell you!

And you Stefy, not yet graduated? Are clearly a dumb moron.

Current Mood: aggravated

And ask on icon_tutorial how the hell you do a crop as a slant.
It's driving me bonkers not being able to do one, and I'm running out of cropping ideas.

Frustrated, I submitted Thursday a set of icons for a challenge... there wasn't anything homogenized about it, and when the other sets were posted I was actually ashamed at having turned it in...
Turn out I have no effing icon sense, cause the set won #2 place, and my least favorite icon of the 4 won #1 place and Most Original O_O

It's so amazing, but so frustrating.
The sets I second HOURS doing and refining never win shit.
-_-

Oh well, I'll worry about it come the end of the week when I'll have to submit again, for now I'll enjoy my first time reaching #1 place :P

Current Mood: Determined

I did the call.
It went better than I thought but still left me feeling dreadful in some respects.
I told him I wasn't in the conditions, mind-set and time-like, to work full time, I could do 4 days out of 5 or similar.
He told me at the moment he needs someone to work hours that go closer to 6 days than 5 so nope...
He made an extra offer, saying I should concentrate on finishing my studies and start the thesis. At that point he could give me a stage and I could try for an experimental thesis, he could give me contacts with people inside Moschino, Calvin Klein or even the top guys in the Milan Fair to interview them. I would be forming the thesis and help them by working for them during the stage.

It seems like a great idea to me, I was hoping my parents would too.
My father doesn't seem to think so, he's still hung up on me not taking this opportunity to have a steady job.
There'll be hell in this house tonight... I'm kinda scared.

Current Mood: crappy

I have to call the boss and say no to his offer.
It's too much for me right now... He wants full time 5 days a week because there's already an employee that's causing him trouble by doing part-time 3 days a week. Add to that the journey to get there... I'd be out of the house before 8AM and go back after 8PM.
It would be a 3 years contract, at the end of it I should be his vice or something similar.
It's appealing but I simply don't have the time to dedicate to it.
When I do take a job like this one, I want to be able to focus solely on this, heart and soul, and I can't do that now.

I started hinting to my answer to dad and he was pissed... I can only imagine the kind of evening we'll have.
Mom was starting to be swayed toward letting me go...
I feel like I'm letting everybody down, it's horrible.

Talking to my parents was bad enough, I'm afraid to call the boss now.

Current Mood: crappy

To gain time for the job update I did this book meme.

These are the top 106 books most often marked as "unread" by LibraryThing's users (as of today). As usual, bold what you have read, italicise that you started but couldn't finish, and strike through what you couldn't stand. Add an *asterisk* to those you've read more than once. Underline those on your to-read list.






( Book meme )

Current Mood: confused

I have to meet the company's boss for lunch.
The whole drama last night was about this.
The company is outside Milan, metro doesn't get there. I always went with the metro as far as I could and then someone would come pick me up there by car.
During the phone call yesterday he asked if we could meet for lunch, I said yes and then he asked if I'd go there. I said I was traveling by public transportation so I could go only so far and he rescheduled for today when he had to drop in Milan for business.
All fine and well.
Until he and dad talked and he dropped in the 'Your daughter failed the marketing test' comment in.
Because apparently I showed I like to sit on my ass and have to make the boss come to me.

Dunno if this came from the boss or dad, all I know is that dad and I aren't speaking and he's giving me hell for this.
I spent last night looking for possible ways of getting to the company and the quickest involves metro and 2 buses for a jolly 1 hour travel.
In the end the boss told me he'd be somewhere in Milan around noon and we could meet there for lunch and a 20 minutes talk.
I'm dreading it like whoa.
Because I'm now convinced he's hiring me because dad brought my name up.


He offered to give me the stage after I graduated.
Now they lost employees and need new ones.
Dad brought up my name.
How would it look if boss had said no to that? He couldn't.
Hence the jolly situation I find myself in.

I'm having a really bad evening.
Even keeping the possibility of this job open is a bad idea, but I'm already in over my head.
Should have severed those ties long ago, fairs included.
I didn't think about it enough to realize dad will always be involved and harass me over this.
I'm an imbecile with no spine.

Current Mood: depressed

How can sugar-free cookies taste sweeter than any other cookie?
Those are the mysteries of italian food... *boggles*

My LJ Paid Account and Extra Pics expire in 4 days.
I was dead set into not renewing when all the fandom drama went down last time, I made preparations to move somewhere else and set up GJ, IJ and JF... But it seems very few people from my FList left permanently.
And I'm looking at my userpics with teary eyes.

I still don't know if I should re-new or not...
Watch me re-new and LJ/6A drop some other massive shit on us.
You can count on my timing and luck.

Yesterday I spent all evening making an icon for a challenge.
I ended up happy with the result too.
And guess what? I forgot to turn it in.
Dead-line was this morning.

I'm such a ditz. T____T

I've moved from my first challenge journal, now I'm signed up to a few more and usually participate in 4 weekly.
(I won a Mod's Choice in the challenge journal for which I forgot to submit last night -_-).


Dad is bugging me to get off the laptop so he can fill his stupid iPod up. I already lent it to him last night, I blame him for forgetting to turn the icon in :P
Gah. Parents.

Current Mood: cranky

I'm feeling melancholic these days.
I'm still feeling sick, and it0s absurd since I don't have a temperature. It's just a damn strong cold.
The fact that for the past two days we've had bad weather isn't helping either... dark, cold, gloomy days. It's almost noon and I'm here with my lights on, it's so depressing.

Plus... I don't know. I'm thinking about stuff.
juliesaintjust lives today for Paris. She got in the Sorbonne so she'll be living and studying there. I'm so proud of her, getting in the Sorbonne? That's big stuff!
She worked hard for this, for almost an year, so I'm happy for her.
But at the same time I know I'll miss her, it's making me a little sad.
Happy and sad at the same time, is it possible?

And my cousin is turning 17 this weekend. It's a bit unsettling. I've had a sort of 'older sibling' relationship with her, and only now I'm truly realizing she's grown up. Things that interested her before don't interest her anymore.
She goes out at night with friends, she's having a much better high school experience than I did and I'm glad, her classmates sound like really cool kids.
I remember the first few years there was a bunch of her girlfriends that pressed to meet me, apparently it was the epitome of 'cool' that she had an older cousin that read Harry Potter :P
Now? I'm thinking they're past all that.
She's getting near the 'rebelling' age, and I'm selfishly crossing my fingers that she'll go through this phase without, well, rebelling. Lol!
I'm so afraid she'll grow out of our relationship, that she won't need me anymore. And it hurts.
She has 2 younger siblings, but I'm an only child. My siblings are those 3 cousins, and I'm terrified of losing them.

I'm looking at this post and seeing a lot of babbling and moaning.
I'm sorry. I'm not helping my mood any, in fact I'm depressing myself even more...
Nevermind, sorry for the huge rant.

Current Mood: guilty

And completely knackered.
The fair was really busy and really active, and as a souvenir I brought home the mothers of all colds.
I can't breathe, my nose hurts from blowing it too much and I generally feel like crap.

But all in all I'm satisfied. I think I did a decent job, it certainly came easier than usual.
I liked the 2 new girls, I had no problems chatting with them.
The usual problem comes with the boss, he's nice and friendly and funny... but dad is his dear friend and that knowledge prevents me from talking to him like I normally would with someone.
I hated it...
Well, it's over now. Until March if I get called back.

And now I'll go to bed I think, with milk and honey -_-
I'll try to catch up with you all as best as I can, but if something happened and you won't me to know post it here!

Current Mood: sick

I'll start working for the fair tomorrow.
Technically the fair starts on Thursday, but tomorrow I'll have to help set up the stand... I don't anticipate being home before 8 or 9 PM -_-
Plus, this year they decided that Friday will be an extended day, opened from 9AM to 10:30PM.

So, I doubt I'll have time to come online much or check in with you guys.
So, this is a goodbye till next week, hopefully I'll be back on Monday.

Let me know if something big happens, or if you want to let me know something email me or post a link in this post. I'd really appreciate it :)

Kisses, sweets!

Tagged by venilia :)

List seven habits/quirks/facts about yourself.


1. Coffee makes me sleepy and tired. I discovered it during the time I was preparing the finals for my high-school graduation. Not good when you're drinking coffee to stay awake and it has the opposite effect :P

2. There's this part of me that's always anxious about appointments. Even though I have the day and time down, I always gets nervous and worry that I might have mixed the dates or written the time wrong.
It's irrational but I can't control it.

3. When I'm watching a movie alone, I rarely manage to hold still. I always end up pausing to digest what I've seen so far, maybe by going in the kitchen or something. Usually happens when I get to the good parts. I like to savor them before I get to other good parts. I'm a weirdo, what can I say :P

4. There's something really frustrating about me and fandoms. When I get into one, be it a book one/anime one/movie one, I somehow ALWAYS end up shipping some minor non-canon pair. I'm almost never happy with canon pairs, and it's frustrating when you're looking for fics. The material is really lacking compared to the other ships. The closer I ever came to a canon OTP is probably in HP with Remus/Sirius... but even that could be disputed and it's the old generation. You can't get me to read Harry/Ginny or Ron/Hermione.

5. I'm a procrastinator. I recently found out and had to face the truth of the fact. I hate being one.

6. I rarely watch tv. Even if I have tv serie I enjoy (like House right now) I prefer to download them and watch them when I feel like it, instead of sitting on the couch and watch it live, with commercials.

7. I hate vegetables. Really hate them. You can get me to eats salads occasionally, maybe a vegetable soup but that's it. I'll eat tomato sauce but no actual tomatoes. It's bad, I know.


Man, that was hard. LOL!
If they want to do it, _puchula_, rlf_2583, ka0richan, gilmorphine ,dragonscrawl can consider themselves tagged. :)

Current Mood: Rushed

I found these Saturday or so, they made me giggle...
But it wasn't until I got CERTAIN PARTS that the giggling turning into squeeing...loud squeeing.

-First one.
Kaori, pay close attention from 1:08 to 1:18 or so :P
(and if you already saw it, well, at least we have something to squee over together).

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-This one... whoever did it has my admiration for the patience and photoshop skills O.O

0:33... *dies...twitchtwich, die some more*
2:14!!!! *gapes...eyes bulge*

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PS. The meme for venilia so coming soon! ;)

Current Mood: cheerful

http://www.sixapart.com/about/press/2007/09/six_apart_appoi.html

And here: http://community.livejournal.com/lj_biz/

And it was done under cover, again. No mention on announcements.
Makes you wonder why, what's the catch this time?

Current Mood: devious

Something occurred to me, pondering the infinite pairings in PoT world.
How come a lot of TezuFuji and TezuRyo fans maul each other while InuKai and MomKai fans seem to get along just fine? o.O
Weird...


In HP news, my project to get grandpa to read the books failed -_-
After 2 months of lending ti to him, he gave me back book 1 saying he gave up halfway through ;_________;
I gave him all possible warning, talking him into gritting his teeth and holding on through the first 2 books, that he'll start to enjoy them from PoA but alas... Failed *sniff*

So to cheer myself up, I'll give you a rec.
It's Remus centric fic, one of those 20 facts kind of fic, but I found it pleasantly refreshing.
It's a different take on Remus, portraying him less admirable or upstanding, more rough but still very believable.

Hope you'll read it and enjoy :D

20 Random Facts About Remus Lupin by snegurochka_lee

Current Mood: quixotic

I have to transfer all of dad's music from his old iPod to the new one?
Anyone know how to do it?

Yes, I'm tech illiterate ;_________ ;

Current Mood: anxious

You know the boss of the infamous fair I work in (which will start again next Thursday)?
You know he's friend with my dad?

Well, he just gave dad a little gift. Tiny. Really just a token.
An 80GB iPod video.
Holy ... CRAP.

I got treated by dad coming home and assaulting me with 'Have you talked to Remo lately?!?', I was already panicking thinking I screwed up, forgetting to call for something work-related and then this.
He thought I suggested it to him. The hell?!

Now you see why working with him can be so uncomfortable at times?
No matter how many times I tell myself to act normal, I can't bring myself to be, well, myself.
The voice in the back of my head always reminds me that this man is close to my father, they see each other regularly...

This had to happen right before the fair too -_-

Not to mention, I'm a bitchy, bitchy daughter.
I was the last in the family to get an iPod (2GB) after I bough one for dad's birthday and one for mom's! Both 4GB.
And now my father has the fancy huge one, which I'll have to synchronize and fill up for him.
I'm jealous :P
And did I mention bitchy?

Current Mood: cranky

This is an interesting one.
Got it from seregil_1982.

1. Go to http://careercruising.com

2. Put in Username: nycareers, Password: landmark.

3. Take their "Career Matchmaker" questions.

4. Post the top ten results.

Results:

1. Career Counselor
2. Child and Youth Worker
3. Music Teacher / Instructor
4. Dental Assistant
5. Actor
6. Addictions Counselor
7. Clergy
8. Nail Technician
9. School Counselor
10. Picture Framer


I'm really puzzled by some of those...Clergy? Say WHAT?! O.o
Not to mention Nail Technician *snorts*

Current Mood: confused

"Comment here and I will reply to you and tell you what icon of yours I associate with you. Once I reply, please repost this in your own journal, because I want to know what icon you associate with me".